I totally forgot about this thing.!

soo wow! soo much has change ! i still go to parties but i have to be in by 12 :) i have an amazinnnng boyfriend.xp and we have amazing sex! altho im only 17, i wish i waited but now that i did it, i love it! i still drink.... even though i got my underage. and such. my life has been going down hill for a while latly... but im trying to put it back together. piece by fucking piece. everyday seems like another hill to climb ughh, its so fucking aggravting. im starting to hate everyone around me, and i love just spending time alone. bcuz i know everytime i do spend time with others something "could" go wrong.. or i "could" say somthing that would upset just one person and idkno i just feel like living like i am for a little bit. keeping to myself, letting people do there own thing. im tired of drama. tired of trying to be "on top" because i dont think i ever got there. its sad. so many people liked me then... in a blink of an eye... people show you how they really feel. ughhh. so whatev. sorry this isn't some exciting bullshit